Happy Two months Cecilia!

Two months, I can't believe it! I am so excited about this, cause I feel like we're over the hump-at least I hope-things will get easier over the next few months as she sleeps more at night, less during the day, has less fussy times, and engages more. I've loved many of these newborn moments, but am excited to have a little more time to myself and a little less chaos in my life. I'm sure childhood is all downhill from here! ; )

But anyway, enough about me, what's up with Cici? Well, we had her two month appointment today, [Okay, I started this a week ago and am just now getting back to it!] which was actually a bit stressful, it's just harder with 2-I had to find childcare for Evelyn (thanks Tish!) and then get her there. Cici's appointment was right at her nap time, so she didn't get barely any morning nap, which made her pretty cranky. although she did well with the Dr and nurse, but no comments about talking and smiling like at Evelyn's two month appointment. She weighs 10 pounds and 4 ounces and is 22 and a half inches long, both are right about at the 50th percentile. Evelyn was at the 90th at her 2 month, so maybe Cecilia will be small like me! Cici's head is smaller-Evelyn never fit into her hats : ) The one thing the Dr did comment on was that she is mostly sleeping through the night-he thought I was pretty lucky in regards to that, and I think so too! She slept through the night (eating at about 7:30pm, sleeping from about 9 until 6am) the last three nights, as well as all week a few weeks ago-woke up at 2am to eat last week. So we'll see. Overall everything looks great and he said she was doing really well. Then she got 3 shots, turned purple with screaming and we left. Poor thing : (

It's hard to believe that it's been two months since I gave birth to her. Some days are easier than others-she still screams a lot in the carseat, but I think it's getting better. And, she does sleep through the night, which is huge, but still has to be rocked, walked, bounced, and sung to sleep, which is really frustrating, and especially hard with a two year old running around. The days that I feel like all I do is hold her are the hardest, I just want freedom! : ) But, she is less cranky in the evenings, which helps and now that we are getting closer and closer to three months, I'm really hoping that she starts to go to sleep on her own, like Evelyn did at that age. I think she is a bit more serious than Evelyn was-she smiles at us now, it just seems like Evelyn was a bit more smiley. She is also starting to pay more attention to objects around her, which is great, because soon we can distract her with them! And, she has more awake time when she is happy and talking-not needing to eat or be put right to sleep, which is fun.

I feel like we've adjusted fairly well as a family over the last few months. Evelyn handles being a big sister very nicely-she wants to involved and loves her little sister, no resentment yet. She is still a bit clingy with me and we have problems when I'm trying to nurse Cici or put her to sleep and Evelyn uses that opportunity to get into anything and everything-but mostly Evelyn does really well. Bard of course is a great help and often walks in the door from work, changes Cici's diaper and then helps with dinner, putting Evelyn to bed and cleaning up before even really getting a chance to sit down. I'm doing well overall, I just seem to have a much shorter fuse than normal. I need to keep reminding myself that this time will go by quickly and I will regain some sense of normalcy within just a few months-a little more sleep, being able to go out by myself easier, and/or with Bard, not constantly caring for a baby, being able to take walks, and enjoying Cici as she engages more. It's just hard to remind myself of that when I'm in the middle of a stressful moment-it doesn't seem to matter that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, cause I'm stuck in the tunnel! I've discovered the stressful times of day: 6:30-8:30am (breakfast, getting dressed, and cleaning up for all of us) 11:30am-2pm (lunches and naps for everyone), and then from 5-9pm (dinner, nap for Cici, bedtime for Evelyn, last feeding and bedtime for Cici.) So, if I'm awake from 6am-10pm, then half the time is fine, I just have to remember that when I feel like screaming because Evelyn has peed on the floor, slipped and fell in it, I'm getting lunch and Cici is screaming because she wants to eat. Oh yes, G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S, sing it Fergie!

Just a few more weeks until I go back to work, so while that will be a huge adjustment, I think we will all be ready for it and just like everything else, try to be flexible, take one day at a time, and keep on, keepin' on!